One of the most memorable and inspirational Buddhist stories that I’ve come across in my novice reading is the story of Angulimala–a story that reminds us that we all have a chance to reach enlightenment, and we all have an opportunity for goodness and grace.
The Story
Angulimala (born Ahimsaka), was a Brahmin’s son who became a student of a famous Brahmin guru. Ahimsaka did well as a student of the Brahmin, and soon became his favorite pupil. Because the other students were jealous of Ahimsaka’s close relationship with the guru, they spread rumors and lies that Ahimsaka had seduced the Brahmin’s wife. Not wanting to directly harm Ahimsaka–perhaps because of political pressure–the guru decided to give Ahimsaka an impossible and horrific task as final payment for his teachings: Ahimsaka’s master demanded 1,000 fingers–each taken from a different victim.
Ahimsaka’s Past Lives
The Pali Canon texts relating Angulimala’s story also explain that Ahimsaka was a powerful demon in his former lives and was known in the Wheel of Rebirth as a man-eater who lacked compassion and exuded superhuman strength. One text I read mentioned that the Buddha recognized Ahimsaka as the strong demon he had always been and valued his innate potential for spiritual enlightenment.
Continuing the Story…
Ahimsaka began his gruesome quest by murdering villagers in the forest of Kosala, stealing a finger from the right hand of each corpse. To keep count of his fingers, he strung them on a thread and hung them from a tree. But when birds began picking the flesh from the bones of the fingers, he began to wear the fingers around his neck like a garland. (From then on, he came to be known by the terrified villagers as Angulimala, which means “necklace of fingers”.)
The villagers–too terrified to enter the forest for fear of Angulimala and his large sword and superhuman strength–soon sought the king, who heard their cries and vowed to hunt down and kill Angulimala. Angulimala’s mother–recognizing her son in the tales of inhuman violence perpetrated on the villagers by a demon who lacked compassion–set out to the forest to save her son from the wrath of the king.
At that point, Angulimala had gathered 999 fingers from villagers that he had either met on the road or dragged from their homes in the village and killed. Upon seeing his mother, he decided he would kill her in order to win his last finger for his master.
Enter the Buddha:
However, at that point, the compassionate Buddha entered the road behind Angulimala’s mother. Angulimala–acting from a place of primordial anger and destructiveness, set out to kill the monk instead and ran after him in fury.
Angulimala was bent on destroying the monk–not realizing he was the Buddha himself–and ran as hard as he could to catch up with the Buddha. After realizing that he was running at top speed and he couldn’t catch up to the Buddha who was standing still, Angulimala cried “Stop!”
The Buddha said simply, “I have already stopped. It is you who must stop.”
According to legend, Angulimala transformed in that moment and gave up his evil ways to lead the life of a Buddhist monk, eventually achieving enlightenment in his lifetime.
The Role of Karma
While Angulimala was able to transform his treacherous heart, he was not immune to the karma that followed him for the rest of his life. The heavy karma of murdering 999 people appeared in Angulimala’s life as rejection, threats, and persecution at the hands of his victims’ families. However, Angulimala had at that point accepted responsibility for his actions–a feat which I often have trouble with–and calmly suffered the karma that he himself had created.
When the persecution became really bad, Angulimala appealed to the Buddha; the Buddha calmly conveyed the message that by suffering through this karma now, he could save himself from being reborn in the lower realms or being cast into Hell–which his soul rightfully deserved.
Applying the Principles of the Story of Angulimala
I often make the mistake of believing that I am beyond change, beyond transformation; that my habits have already been formed, and I am merely a plaything of the elements of fate.
The story of Angulimala reminds me that I am in control over my actions; that whatever I have done, I can repay the karmic debt by behaving compassionately, guided by the Buddhist heart and the infinite wisdom of divine love.
The fact that I have done nothing so bad as Angulimala–nor will I ever–gives me solace and peace, because I know that if a murderer of 999 men, women, and children can transform his heart, how much easier for me!
In a nutshell, I think the story of Angulimala gives me hope that positive change and actions borne out of pure, loving kindness, can heal my spirit; that rather than feeling guilty or thrown around by fate, I can take a positive step forward to repay the karmic debts of my past.